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Coarse Hairs
03:16
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Coarse hairs and raised skin
Sweat drips and falls in
Every orifice throbs and pleads
Animals bark, bite, and need
Nails dig; draw blood
Rough hands; dirt and mud
Smeared, blackened chapped lips
Drooling pools and juice drips
Exchange, react
Exchange, react
A part of you I won't give back
Taking, stealing, making it mine
Destroying it
Leaving nothing behind
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2. |
Now What?
03:26
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So what? So what?
So what? So what?
So deprived, too late it finally arrived
Watch it slide, right through my fingers and die
For what? For what?
So contrived, disasters that we've survived
Can't confide, he's gone, bye bye
Now what? Now what?
Now what? Now what?
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3. |
Crush The World
03:27
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For someone who could crush the world
I really feel so small
The iron fist that I've been carrying
Starts to really weigh a ton
At any second I can change
Like a chameleon
Unable to control my surroundings
I'm paralyzed by the comings and goings
Of a world I fucking hate
But I want so badly to love
My veins cry out
They keep on needing
My skin is tough
From lack of touch
My lungs leak air we could have shared
So why weren't you even there
Time mocks me as I stare
Into the dead and dying air
I tried real hard
To give those things up
That fill me
That fill me up
Until I'm whole
Until my soul
Until my soul can feel enough
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4. |
Dance With God
02:15
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Never getting what I need
Too scared to ask though inside I plead
Alone and cornered
Always traveling
Never settling.
Comfort is a word I don't know
Through burnt asphalt and frigid snow
I would probably dance with god
Just to curse him for forgetting a step
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5. |
Poison
04:09
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I've picked my poison
I thought i had a few
Over the years I bought some time
To change, abuse,
pick, and choose
What will kill me faster?
What will make me live forever ?
The times I cry and times I smile
Interchangeable; few and far between
I am not the one who decides
What they even mean
I am not the one who decides
What they even mean
even mean
How comforting it is to let go of the wheel
How sad and oh so joyous
to know that I can't feel
I want to be immortal
I want to die tomorrow
I want to hug my family
I want to disappear
I'm sorry I could never be
The trophy child; always last place
Is that why I am dead inside ?
What am I trying to replace?
I will still smile tomorrow
When I clean up what I left behind
And pretend that it's a new day
As if it's different
As if it's alright
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6. |
Broken Necks
02:47
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You look so sad
I want to dry your tears
I'll even lend my hand
My shoulder sleeve and ears
For fragile flesh and bones
The words I hear and turn to stone
The smiles fade; anger it turns
My heart: I can't admit it burns
I break my neck five days a week
When I turn away from what I see
It hurts it soothes it's what I need
When I feel alone
When I feel at home
When I have a chance
To be the one who knows
I don't know what it means
To live this sad charade
But I'll be there when it seeks
A friend whose dues are paid
In the end I'm still alone
But that's fine I like the simple life
I loosen my belt and situate
It's not like it's gonna change
And in the end I'm still alright
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I want it all but when I have it
I want nothing it's just a habit
To take and ask and never know
What to do with the seeds I sow
I want it all but when I have it
I want nothing it's just a habit
To take and ask and never know
What to do with the seeds I sow
Or what to make of what they grow
Drowning sorrows; no tomorrow's
Waking up to beg and borrow
A useless waste a mess of space
A smear of lipstick; a pretty face
I'll leave my shit all on your floor
And leave you nothing at the door
Tell me how to live
Tell me how to gives
I want to feel it
Really feel it
The thing I've heard of once before
But I'll just head straight for the door
It's easier that way I guess
Easier to make a mess
So sorry for your troubles
But I think it's for the best
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8. |
Multiplex
03:13
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Stabbing knives
Widowed wives
Eating bowels
Hungry growls
Blades gliding
Needles plunging
Stripping skin
Bodies purging
Being nothing
Breathing envy
Fucking best friends
loving enemies
Giving everything is easy
When your face says it means nothing
I never have a word to say
You silence me and it's okay
I'd almost rather die inside
Than be alone and be alright
All these words are all the same
So are you
You kill me anyway
You don't even know it
But my valves are dry
They heave and cave
And I hoped that you would heal me
But this rattle is familiar
It is harsh and cold
And it feels the same
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9. |
Losing It
04:58
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When it's going down
I can't help but feel down
Everything was great
But losing it, it hurt
When I thought about it
I was looking through rose -tinted glasses
It's all that I could think about
And losing it, it hurt
It hurt
When I was a bit younger
I had a powerful hunger
Nothing would be perfect
Until I found someone
But someone never came
And it seemed kind of lame
But it's a hidden blessing
I'm stronger now than ever
When it's going down
I can't help but feel down
Everything was great
But losing it, it hurt
When I thought about it
I was looking through rose -tinted glasses
It's all that I could think about
And losing it, it hurt
It hurt
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10. |
3 AM
04:07
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Once a month my good friend calls me
Not to talk, or see how I've been
But to take 3AM somewhere new
Make the time have some value
This hour is as dark a sky
As the black inky stains down each eye
My worth is matched by the dialtone
I listen a second longer
As if it will whisper an apology
For my dignity; a eulogy
A eulogy
I do this again, I come as called
And I'm panting like a dog
Who's starved and beat
And sick in heat
But never does it make me feel complete
My worth is matched my the dialtone
I listen a second longer
As if it will whisper an apology
For my dignity; a eulogy
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11. |
Springtime
03:17
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I'll eat myself alive
I cry and ache and strive
If I cut my skin
would you fit in
Should I taste the salt
of you again
It's a double edged sword
Wanting to have the world
If it means you in it
Ripping my nails off
Smiling at the ground
Screaming beating
Myself; it goes around
I'm dying inside
I'm dying inside
Because you make me whole
And what that means
I don't fucking know
So for now I'll just stare
At this big gaping hole
The one I rip in my own soul
My stained eyelashes
They glue together
It burns and it stings
But it's still you
I smile at the ground
Because you're around
If that makes me nothing
Then together were something.
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12. |
Heavy
03:34
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No one loved me like you did
No one lied to me like you did
When I died inside you said it was alright
When my blood turned brown I felt alive
A man on the street begged me for change
My father cried today it's all the same
I wish I'd never miss your touch
The pinch the romantic lust
No one loved me like you did
I thought I could find what you gave me
I feel everything now and it kills me
Turn it off flick the switch
It was so easy then
To sweat and shake
And anticipate
That it would all just go away
I don't have that now
I just have the world
It weighs me down and hurts my hands
I drop it on the ground
It shatters and it's all the same
Id like to rest a while
Because
To feel the crevices in an arm
When they don't want me
Hurts more than anything
Because I know that you
Always did
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13. |
Quit, Split, Forget
03:22
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She don't believe you, she don't believe you
She wants to leave you, she wants to leave you
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I would shake hands with the devil
Then forget his name a second after
(Repeated)
I mastered a trick to disappear
As if I never was even here
Never even here
But there's no audience to give me applause
Just the leftover and forgotten
Corpse of what once was
I mastered a trick to disappear
As if I never was even here
Never even here
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A MARC Train Home Washington, D.C.
Dream-punk from the DC metro area. 90s kids being loud and fuzzy.
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